Lost in the Beginning of a New Chapter

"Look at the blank pages before you with courage"

Oh my god!

I'm actually writing a blog post! This feels weird but it feels so good to be back! My sincere apologies for the lack of content in the last month or so. I never expected myself to be so busy that I couldn't spend time on my blog! So don't worry, I'm back in action! 

So, as some of you may or may not know, I finished my college course in the middle of May and I am delighted to say I passed my exams and I now have an Event Management degree after 4 tough but rewarding years at Dublin Institute of Technology. Has it sunk in? Oh god no! I still feel like I'll be heading back in September, when reality is, I won't be heading back until I graduate in early November. 

For the past month, I've been super busy with my job hunt. To be honest, I would've liked to have a full-time job by now but I've loved what I've been doing so far! I've been working at a variety of events including Dalkey Book Festival, Bloom Festival & InspireFest! What have I been doing there? I've been mainly working on social media, trying to gain more experience! I've been loving it so far and I've been lucky with the opportunities. Naturally working long days at events can be exhausting but it is worth it and so rewarding!

At the edge of Dalkey (Dublin,Ireland)

This has been one of the main reasons why I haven't had a chance to blog even though I've been attending so many events. But, I'm currently writing different pieces and I have so many ideas for content that I can't wait to create and write!

So you might be wondering, how is life since finishing college? To be honest, scary! I know realise that I don't want to grow up and I've been searching for cheap flights to join Peter Pan in Neverland! Ok, serious time, it's been overwhelming, not knowing exactly what I want to do and how to achieve it. When I finished college, it felt like I just got handed my degree and was just left to face the world with no guidance. I've been so busy that I haven't been able to really take it all in, which has in turn affected my mood. I feel cranky more than ever because I'm not sleeping well and working long days (although enjoying it). I've felt really lost and its scary to even type that and admit it, but I am. I'm not going to sugarcoat it & say everything is ok. It's scary not knowing exactly what I want to do and I don't know what to do or what I want in life. Maybe, I'm only a month out and I'm not supposed to know & I suppose that's ok to. But, I've just been handed a new chapter in my life and now I keep asking myself "What now?". 

Writing a new chapter

I know I need to take a chill pill soon & treat myself to a little break. Whether it be in Ireland or in Europe, I'd love to spend a few days somewhere just relaxing as my brain hasn't stopped since I finished college. That time will come, hopefully soon! Until then, I'll keep facing the world every morning, working hard towards a goal, some goal, I don't know what goal, but I'll figure it out. It's ok to not know, just keep doing what you're doing.

Stay tuned for more chaos,

JB X