Chapter 12 of 12 of "2014"

Happy December to you all!

Yes. It is December. We are now on our final chapter of 2014. Although the year is coming to an end, there is hope that 2015 will bring opportunities and joy. It is mind-blowing to think that 2014 is nearly over as it feels like yesterday when I was dying of a hangover on New Years day! I don't know how 2014 went for me. To be honest, it was such a blur and I can't think of much things I have achieved. Lucky for me, I kept one promise to myself all year. Since the 1st January, I have had a box in my room, where I would right down something exciting that happened. So when December 31st comes, I will open the box and realise I did have a good year.

Last month, I did create a list of goals I wanted to achieve in the month of November. Did they all happen? Hell no! This is me, I am so unorganised and lazy at times that I just don't put the important things first. I woke up feeling sad today, thinking I have so much to do and so little time this month. It is so hard to find time for everything while trying to enjoy life. I am only 21 but I feel so stressed out all of the time. And I shouldn't feel like this. But its life really. And I have to accept it and change it if possible to make sure everyday is as great as the next one.

So here is my goals I would like to/have to attend this month:

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1. Continue to find my Internship for 2015

2. Study more for exams before and after Christmas

3. Treat people how I want to be treated

4. Save Money for Christmas Shopping.

5. Focus on things and projects that make me happy.

6. Love myself

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Internship 2015.

As I have told you before, I must undertake a 6 month internship as part of my college course. Due to lack of motvation and low self confidence, I haven't brought myself to wanting to find one. I have said no to a lot of things this year that I should of said yes to. So I really want to find the perfect event/PR internship that will make me happy. I want it to be my time to shine and to show people what I can do.

Study my bootay off.

Ugh. Study equals dying. I tend to enjoy studying if I enjoy the subject. And luckily for me, I like a majority of my subjects.  However there is one or two that I'm not a fan of. But, I have to study and I know I will try to put my head down as much as I can.

People equals Respect

Always try to treat people the way you want to be treated. Don't be so cruel, because karma will come bite you in the ass! Always be true to yourself and say how you really feel about things. Don't just say things because someone else wants to hear them. Be as honest as you can in situations. If you have something to say, don't leave it to the last minute. Appreciate every waking moment you have on this earth and share the love and joy that you were brought into the world with.

Christmas Shopping

I am going to be honest, I'm not a fan of Christmas shopping. I end up spending 80% of my money allocated to people I want to buy for, for myself. What can I say? I like to treat myself! Due to a big load of college work, I haven't been able to work as much as I liked to. However with Christmas parties approaching this money, I should get enough money to cover my weekly expenses and to some to put away for saving. It is impossible for me to save because I love spending as money I have.

Surround yourself with Happiness

Somedays you can just wake up and put a smile on your face and forget about all your negative thoughts. Then there are days when you can't even get out of the bed. For this month, I will write down how I feel when I wake up and how I feel when I go to sleep. This will help get things off my chest without telling anyone. It might allow me to enjoy my day and have a more peaceful sleep. If there is something in your life that you don't like, change it! Life is too short and wait around for happiness. At times it can be hard work to get, but it will be so worth it when you have it. Focus on you and do things you enjoy that make you happy. 

Me, Myself and I

Every day of every month of every year, this is always my goal. Make-up, clothes and smiles may make me feel good on the outside but I want to feel good on the inside. I want to fill my brain with happy thoughts and hopes but at times I feel like my head is to dark. Scary, I know. But I know I am not the only one. I will continue to love myself everyday and know that I am beautiful. Always remember you are beautiful and unique. Your imperfections are what makes you, you. You are special to many people in your life. Make them happy by keeping yourself happy. Talk to someone if you are ever feeling down. There is always someone there.

Wow. That was a really deep and personal post. I just kept on typing there and spoke from the heart. I would like to know what you thought about that. Would you like more personal posts? Please let me know.

Stay tuned for more chaos,

JB

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